I started this blog about a year and a half ago, a few months before graduation. Since then my life has gone down some pretty unpredictable pathways. I’ve lived in a foreign country, I’ve traveled a bit, I’ve made new friends, and I’ve discovered a love for writing. I’ve learned that clasping on too tightly to a single objective is sometimes a disservice to yourself. I’m constantly working on finding a balance between leading the life I envision and accepting where life wants to take me.
While I was in France, I went through many different emotions. One of them was feeling an intense pull back to the United States. I loved living in France. I loved the people, the food, the culture. I loved every moment of my time away. However, it’s during that time away that I realized just how much I wanted to engage in my own country and community.
I don’t mean this in a post-Trump victory, patriotic fervor kind of way. I mean this in the most natural and heartfelt kind of way. In many ways, Utah and Salt Lake City have shaped who I am. I don’t know if it’s the people or the physical environment, but something about Utah is calling me back. I still have many things to learn and goals to accomplish and I have a gut feeling that I can learn these things in Utah.
And perhaps for many a recent post-grad, the thought of going back to the hometown seems like a step back. But for me, the part of me that’s telling me to return to Salt Lake City is the part of me that sees potential. I see the potential in the work of my friends and neighbors. Even in just the last three weeks, I saw it when I went to the Utah Asian Festival. I felt it when I helped a friend campaign for an elected office. I heard it in the story of a local public radio station radiothon. I embraced it at the Utah Arts Festival.
No matter where you go, there’s always good work to be done. There’s always a helping hand to be given, a table to be set up, an event to be planned, an environment to take care of, children to teach, and communities to build. And for me it’s not about changing the world. It’s about doing your best work in your chosen community. It’s about making active choices to create the life you want to live.
So, where to next?
Salt Lake City, because there’s lots of good work to be done.